Step One: Deciding to Date

Two nights ago I had a dream that I was on a double-date with Edward & Bella from Twilight (must have been all the pre-New Moon hype). I could not make out who my date was, but I was having fun, laughing and enjoying myself at dinner somewhere.... and hopefully I was not the dessert. I woke up feeling happy and content.

So then I realized that:
1 - I am a social being
2 - I liked being married (when it was good)
3 - I like having someone to share my life with
4 - I want someone in my life
5 - I can survive dating again

So now what? Do I just hope that I find someone? Do I make an effort to meet men? Where does one go to meet men when you are 39, a mom, work full-time, go to grad school, own a home by yourself and have very little spare cash?

I admit, I have no idea.



So what are the options????

1- tell all my friends I am ready to date and hope that they have someone to introduce me to
2- join an online dating site like match.com
3- go to one of the local matchmakers
4- attend speed-dating events

I have no idea which I will choose at this point. Decisions, decisions.

So I now find myself in the land of checking the left ring finger of every man I talk to. I try to smile more in general and strike up conversations with people where ever I go.

Dating at 39 with a 5 year old daughter will be an experience. Some comedy. Some drama. Some chaos. Some stress. Either way, I hope I am ready. I know I do not want to be alone forever, and I am not getting any younger, so here I go. I will make the leap and jump head first into this dating world.

For now I think I will tell some friends and see if they have any possibilities for me. The holidays, a 20-page final paper and my house-warming party will keep me more than busy this month. If nothing seems promising, I will do something more significant on January 1st.... join a dating service, go see the local matchmaker or something else. Who knows what life will bring me?